New Opportunities Equal New Challenges.

The past 2 1/2 years have been about growth and learning. The last three months have been about focus and evaluating the next part of this journey. 

I was turned down from each of the University of California schools I applied to. I tried to blame it on the budget crisis and it somehow wasn't my fault. In all reasonable actuality I can just blame myself. I kept putting off certain required classes until it was too late to take them. Two classes I needed to complete this spring, summer sessions wouldn't count. I thought they would, according to a very confusing web site, but they don't. What does that mean. Well, my SFSU admission was conditional, and since I am not going to meet the conditions, they are going to retract the offer and I will not be admitted. Now in the past I would have beaten myself up for it, seen nothing but the negative parts of the situation. Now though, after I actually had to sit and meditate on it, I could see the positive outcome that can come from this. 

I will be able to concentrate on finishing up the last two courses I need. And with a couple of other courses I can push my GPA closer to 4.0. Then I will be able to re-apply to UC Berkeley and UCLA. I found out the only reason I wasn't admitted was due to the one class I needed to take this summer. In the end, I'll get to go to the school I really wanted to.

 

I will have more time to devote to my new position and help this new company succeed. If the company does well, then I will do well. 

I will have some time to take a couple of little trips. Maybe even that backpacking adventure I wanted to do last summer. 

I am going to start training in the martial art of aikido. 

I'll have more time to work on my meditation skills and enjoying life. 

I believe this is what I need to re-focus myself and set myself on the path of happiness. 

In the end, this news was actually a bit of a relief. It seems like a lot of the stresses that have weighed me down are lifted and are going to allow me to center myself. It is exactly what I needed.